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Friday, December 21, 2012

Long Post...Please read!

This week was probably the longest/most emotional week of my life..... Here it goes--- I went in Monday afternoon for my very first doctor appointment and was excited to be able to hear my baby's heartbeat for the first time. Everything was checking out just fine but the doctor was unable to find the heartbeat. This was pretty normal though because I have a tilted uterus which makes it really hard to find the heartbeat. Luckily there was an opening for an ultrasound right then and there which was awesome because not only was I gonna hear the heatbeat I was gonna see my little peanut....Score!  Jared was sitting beside me watching the ultrasound tech do her thing while I looking at the screen waiting to see our baby. I could not see a tiny baby or any kind of growing peanut anywhere. (freaking out a little) Then the ultrasound tech asked how many weeks I was and I told her 10 weeks and 4 days. The tech said the sac is only measuring at 6 weeks.  So, she goes and gets the doctor and he said that a couple things could be happening. First thing is that I could be off on my dates and really only be 6 weeks along.... Or I could be miscarrying. The only way to know for sure is to get blood drawn to test my hormone levels.  They would call me Tues with the results.  After a sleepless monday night I get a call from the doctor himself (not good) tues afternoon telling me that my hormones levels did not indicate that I was misscarrying.... In fact my hormone level was WAY TOO HIGH!  To carry a normal healthy pregnancy your hormone level needs to be between 4,000 and 6,000. Mine was at 50,0000! He said from the looks of my super high hormone level and reviewing my ultrasound pics he believes that I am pregnant with a MOLAR PREGNANCY.  Which means: This is a abnormal pregnancy where the baby did not form at all but the placenta and uterus is still growing like it is pregnant.... (your body has pregnancy symptoms) The egg and sperm just did not connect the way they should have basically. He then said that my body will not try to eject the baby because it wasn't a misscarriage because everything is still growing like it should but with no baby inside which is very bad for me. I guess if you let it grow bigger it could turn into a tumor (cancer). The doctor told us to meet him Wed to do another hormone level test and to discuss what we needed to do from there. He told us that he wanted to do surgery to get all the tissue cleaned out of me asap so it didn't turn into more growths which could turn turmorous. The doctor also told us since this is a Molar pregnancy I have to be monitered and have hormone tests done monthly for a whole year to make sure those growths do not come back because they could turn into turmors and my odds of having another Molar pregnancy doubles. Jared and I are also not allowed to get pregnant for a year and have to be on birth control. So it's very important we do everything the doctor says. Anyway,  he scheduled me for a D and C for this morning at 10 am. It's a surgery that takes out all the tissue and placenta thats still growing. They put me under so I don't remember anything and didn't feel anything.  Jared said the doctor came in and talked to him and told him that he got everything out and everything was looking good. I woke up today from surgery at 11:30 am and it hit me that I was no longer pregnant. I am now home recovering and feeling pretty good considering I just had surgery. I'm sorry this is such a long/depressing post but I needed to write it down and let friends and family know whats going on. Jared and I want to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers. Even though we don't get our baby in July like we hoped we do know that Heavenly Father has a different plan for us right now and we will follow his plan because he is our Father in Heaven and he knows whats best for us. I don't know why this happened but one day we will and I feel so much comfort from that.  I know one day Heavenly Father will send us another precious baby when he feels its time.... And Jared and I will be ready! So, I want everyone to be happy and don't feel sad for us because we really are ok and feel at peace with this. We want you all to have the best Christmas and give your kids hugs and kisses because they really are miracles! I have 2 of the most beautiful miracles and I am so happy my Heavenly Father sent them to me. We love you all......

Love,
                                                                                         Jared, Shawna, Skye and Bree

3 holla backs:

Kasey Turner said...

Luv ya sista!

jake and jenni said...

wow! I always knew you were strong, this just proves you are even stronger and more amazing than ever. You have amazing faith and you are exactly right, The Lord has a plan for you... and it ALWAYS works out better than we could have planned. Hang in there. Hug your girlies. They are miracles!!! I will keep praying for you and your little family.

Shawnda and Nathan Mills said...

Hey Shawna! My first pregnancy was a molar pregnancy. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I remember how hard it was for me and all the uncertainty. But now I have 2 beautiful babies and have never had a problem. The Lord truly has his timing and is so loving. Your in my prayers girl. Love ya